tantan's blog

Haven't really got any 'earth moving' story to tell. Just wanted to chat to someone, even if its only a one sided conversation to the little man in the computer! I have to say that I think Ian looks a whole heap better that he did, although he says he feels just as crap as ever (i'm sure he does), he just 'seems' better in himself. It has been a whole week now since we got the news that the cancer was back, so he has…

It was family friday today, the night when we all go to my sisters. Ian surprised me when I asked him if he wanted to come and said yes, cos he normally struggles with it. We had a really good night, he didn't once look as though he was struggling. Have just realised it is probably due to the steroids starting to kicking in. If he carries on like this he should feel strong enough to cope with the chemo that Dr Sykes offered…

Went back to see the surgeon today, as planned. But unfortunately things didn't go to plan. It wasn't the surgeon who was sat there when we walked in, it was Dr Sykes who has been treating Ian all along. Even though the surgeon said 4 weeks ago that there was no trace of cancer unfortunately the CT scan showed that there is, and it is now inoperable. He told us there is nothing more they could do except perhaps some palliative…

Thank God today is over. No cancer found Yeah. He has to go back to see the surgeon in 4 weeks time to see what the plan is with the adhesions. He said he would try and stretch his gullet while he was down there but couldn't manage it cos it was so narrowed, so over to plan B whatever that is. Also I asked him about the swelling too as this morning it was so bad it was closing his eye. Anyway it is just lymphoedema, …

Well. Jimjams are packed and i've updated ian's I pod for him. I just have to take the fuse out of his feeding pump so he's not tempted to snack after midnight (just kidding!). This time tomorrow he'll have been 'investigated' and should be home again. He looks better today than he has looked for weeks and although I am a quivering wreck, I am feeling quite positive. I have had it in my head that the cancer has come back…