Recently I told you about a dear friend of mine that has very recently passed away.
Well her funeral is on Wednesday and i dont feel I can go..................
This makes me sound like an extremely unfeeling and callous person but please dont think that cos I am so not like that and I am really struggling with this big time. I have had such a tough cancer journey during the last 3 months not only physically but emotionally too. And it has taken a lot of hard work and patience and time to get me feeling that I can start to deal with this and i am very wary of going back to where I was and I couldnt cope with that again......please dont think I am selfish because I am the most unselfish person I know and before all this happened I would have put everyone before me and dealt with the fall out but I cant do it this time.
To make me feel even worse my daughter (16) was friends with Leighs daughter and wants to go and I dont feel I can take her - is it wrong to let her go with family friends?? I feel I am letting her down and am getting upset just thinking about it. I know Leigh would be the first person to tell me to stop worrying and not to go but i feel so bad and dont know what to do - HELP
Tabitha x
