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lazy day yesterday - washing, pottering, reading then decided to go for a walk to see a couple down the dale who'd invited us over before my treatment starts up again. Opened the door and it's pissistently raining. Again. So we drove. Had a look round their house - it's a longterm barn conversion - but the barn is right next to the house he and his family lived in for generations. Dad sold up when his wife died and moved away and son bought a pile of stones! They've been doing it as they could afford it and in their 'spare' time for about 6 years, living in a caravan 'on site'. Anyway, I hadn't seen it since last xmas and it's really coming together. He's a joiner by trade but a real artist about it - he went on his own with no backing because he couldn't stand the way his bosses bodged things - he really cares about what he does. It looks fantastic! It always amazes me that people can just 'do' stuff like that! I've been thinking about this on and off for the last few months. Wish I could do something with my hands, lol! I've done loads in the last 20 years but not much of it is 'tangible' if you see what I mean. Brought up 2 kids, trained to be a teacher (8 years part-time) and home edded at the same time. Couldn't drive or afford to learn so couldn't teach so went back to a pub kitchen for 3 years to keep the wolf from the door. Put loads of gigs and festivals on, recorded bands. It's just you know how people have 'hobbies' or just know how to do stuff - I've never had/made the time to devote to 'it'. I've burnt the candle at both ends for years just to tread water it seems. No, that's not true - I know we've done more than that and I know that when I'm in school, even though it's on supply mostly, I've never seen it as 'just a job'. When i was in the kitchens it was good - a real laugh in an upstairs downstairs way (ie. kitchens did the real work, waiters/room cleaners fannied about watching daytime tv in all the rooms, haha) and I took pride in my salads - they looked lovely! And my washing up - it was very clean! Have lost my thread completely now - maybe it's a mid-life crisis. Immaculate bl**dy timing if that's the case! It's probably more to do with the fact that it's a grey day here and I've got boring but necessary stuff to see to and haven't started it yet... Still, kids are back this afternoon. That'll liven me up a bit! Normal service will be resumed... take care all love x