a quiet day and an eventful night (yeah right, in your dreams)

Spent the day on the internet and sitting in the garden in the 'spaced-out' way you get when you haven't slept. Not disturbing at all - your senses are kind of heightened aren't they? Sat outside for a little while to get my vitamin D fix. Then debated with myself whether to go to bed for a while or wait til bedtime and hopeully sleep better tonight. In the end, I went to bed for a while but couldn't sleep so sat up watching a few episodes of House which always cheers me up (!). Youngest DS came and sat with me for a while to satisfy himself that I was watching telly and not just 'being ill'. He doesn't say but he hates the notion of me just 'taking to my bed' during the day - fortunately that's only happened a couple of times (only cos I really was shattered). We usually end up having this daily, reflex-testing thing (it's where we do karate moves or fencing jabs without the fences) which starts with one or other of us pinching a slice of toast or something equally childish :) and it's kind of like kittens when they play-fight with their mums - all good fun and not, erm, violent (we don't really go around slapping each other all day!). I read him like a book and he just doesn't want to see any sign of me giving up and I can go with that! Anyway slept great last night - I dream loads these days- big technicolour ones but they don't disturb my sleep if you see what I mean. Last night's involved the usual element of being 'unprepared' for teaching a class but pulling something out of the hat (my typical, supply teacher dream) and having to drive a huge bus to my sons' gig which meant a route of narrow spaghetti junction roads - "Who's stupid f***ing idea was this? I've never driven a f***ing bus!" and "f***ing mini-roundabouts" were the only two things I remember saying. So today I have to start planning DS' work - they've got a gig in York tonight so should be on my own from late this afternoon. That's been the worst thing about stupid cancer - missing gigs... "I must work. I must not spen the time watching BBC iplayer. I must work. I must not spend time watching BBC iplayer. I must..."