Bravery isn't being fearless...It's doing the feared...

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Hi everyone, I am Katie, just tuned 20 and I am new to the Macmillan Site. I hope to meet new people, as I feel scared. I will tell......

I work as a Graphic Designer and had been taking migraine tablets for 9 years as they do get worse. Well me, the Boss and the Manager noticed my colours were incorrect. I would see orange if a banner was brown or green if a sticker was black. My left eye became blurred and tunnel visioned even though I had my glasses on, which I were prescribed when I was 15. on the Weekend I booked an eye test at Specsavers and failed the vast majority of tests. I had to be referred to the Hospitals eye department. Again, I failed most tests and although the doctor thought it was an inflammed optic nerve, I was referred for an MRI. After the MRI Scan I got a telephone call to say they needed me in the next day. I went in and the Doctor said they had found an abnormality on the left side of my brain. I broke down in tears. I had to be referred to another specialist department in another Hospital as they had no clue what is was. I waited a week and went to speak to the Neurosurgeons at the other Hospital. There was 3 tumours and a build up of fluid. Me and my family was scared and upset. I had to be admitted that day for an operation the next day. All I could do was stand and stare outside the window of my ward. When I went in for the operation, I was nervous after being told it was major but during the recovery afterwards, my vision was perfect but was connected to alot of wires and my head was sore. I couldn't believe the amount of painkillers I was on. Well, I was back home after 4 nights and now recovering. I have to go back this week for the results which I am really scared of hearing. I dont know what to expect as I didnt expect this to happen. I have been put off work for a couple of Months but I really want to go back to work. I have to walk with a stick and I tire easily.

Thankyou all for reading my story x x

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    So sorry to hear your story Kate. I hope things will not be as bad as they appear.

    I am glad you found us on this site. We will be with you every step of the way if you want us to.

    You can rant and rave scream and cry and we will be here to help smooth the way back to good health.

    There are lots of wonderful helpful loving people in macland all here and ready to be your friend.

    Take Care Lots of Love Julie X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    You are being really brave and need to continue to be. Think positive as it makes a huge difference. In my experience this is what got me through. A positive attitude makes you and those around you strong.

    I used a lot of music, tunes that made me smile.

    Keep smiling and try not to worry. Take it one step at a time. I used to imagine me in a boxing ring battering my way through to the next challenge. I know this may seem daft but it helped me and I hope it helps you xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Of course you are scared my love but wait for those results and then take it from there. We have all had times when we have been scared and worried, so you have found a site where people understand exactly where you are coming from. Take one day at a time and work will have to wait, rest if you are tired. I wish you well and keep in touch....love Carol x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    hello katie

    you have already been thro so much in ashort space of time ........ and yes waiting for results is a scary time

    (its scary for me waiting for my sons results) i wish there was  a magic word i could say to you to make it less scary - but we all know ther isnt .........

    weve gotta try to say hang on till we find out whats what

    easier said than done ....... but hope you reign in your fears a wee bit

    a lot of results ARE GOOD news .............. fingers toes n everything crossed that you get good news!

    much love xNx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Katie,

    Welcome to the site. On here you are among the best People and friends you could wish to have. We are here for you and you are here for us,thats because we are one Big Family who look out for eachother. Dont go thinking the worst until your results come back. All the best.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx