Hi
This is my first time on here, I lost my mum on the 26th June 2008 to Cancer, I remember the day like it was yesterday,
It was a Thursday the time was 10.30, at Northwick Park Hospital same ward I lost my nan in 5 years before.
As sad as this is I can not grieve for her, It not a case I don't I just can not I've tried looking at old photos, playing the song we had on in the church I've even went into the loft and open some boxes with some of her stuff in it, but still no tears.People have said to I should grieve or it will hit me like led balloon, but I feel like she still with me so why should I grieve?
The things I hate most about all this is I never got to say bye or tell her I loved her, because by the time I got to the hospital she was in a coma state, I wish I colud of said bye I think that might of helped, she was my world my rock, she was the type of person that would help anyone I hope I turn out like her?
I look forward to hearing from anyone who been threw what I going threw
Sheila
