well tommorow is dads funeral he died on the 25th january, dont know how im feeling right now about the funeral, i have cried so much in the last couple of weeks feel numb now, dreading tommorow as i know its our last goodbye, its been one hell of a year, didnt realise how depressed and sressed i have actualy been until now,now that its all over, i think you just go into auto pilot and not live but function, i have gone from someone outgoing, bubbly and game for anything to someone who dreads leaving the house,no interest in anything anymore and uiet withdrawn, the cancer has taken my dad and i feel my identity also, it is such a cruel illness, its taken him from me but it will never destroy my memories and happy times i had with my dad, love you dad xx
