I spent yesterday feeling very sorry for myself. I'm half way through radiotherapy and my armpit is very very sore (ow ..... lots of sympathy please). I'm still going up to London every day to work and getting oh so tired. Ive had enough of being strong for everyone else and feel its time I concentrated on "me"!
BUT ... every night I try to write at least one good thing in a little book before I go to sleep. Last night I thought "nothing good ever happens to me", I was full of self pity etc. and then I pulled myself together. One of my daughters has just got a new flat 2 roads away and the other daughter and the grandchildren move into a house 20 minutes away next week (now they are 2 hours away). Thats fantastic, I'll be able to see more of them and they'll be there for me. I won't have to be so strong all the time as the girls will be around. My husband would do anything for me, if I would only let him, so I don't have to do everything, all I have to do is ask. Then last night I was in the chatroom and gave a web address of a cancer counselling charity to someone who was getting stressed, so I can still help other people.
So yesterday wasn't a bad day, it was a good day! I have to focus on the good and not the negative things that happen.
