Hello...sorry but im a reet nowty sod today...dont know why...maybe im just bored at home or fed up of being n limbo again...still waiting for a date to start chemo...i just feel like screaming and shouting,,,very tearful...n anyone who knows me will tell you thats not me..im usually very placid n laid back...but i feel so frustrated. I just want to start the next phase towards recovery n getting my life back on track. My common sense...whats left of it...tells me that im not the only one who needs treatment n i have to wait my turn..but im getting a selfish streak n i dont like it...it really isnt me.
I had a txt from a friend today asking how i was...usually i reply..yeah fine thanx..but im that way out today so i said..had a bit of pain over the weekend n feeling a bit down today....and guess what???...no reply..dont blame her i suppose but i thought i cant keep telling people im ok wen im not. Id better text back n apologise n just say sorry for moaning but im a bit tired.
Right ..rant over...i feel better just typing it all out on here...its a release n a place to let off steam. I dont get these days very often Thank God...i'l be reet tomorrow probably..just having a bit of a self pity day...hope everyones well n i apologise if anyone reads this somewhere else...i put it in the wrong place..lol..thught id blogged it but i hadnt...dont know where it is...lol...what a numpty eh!!!...XX
FormerMember
hope that made you feel a wee bit better ....we are here to listen even if we cant "help"
i sure hope your friend pops round to see you with a big bar of choccy or something
to help you smile!
cyber choccies n cyber flowers winging there way to you from me
Awww thanx N...that is so sweet of you..i am feeling better now...just a blip earlier...frustration n lack of sleep i think..nowt that cant be fixed...lol..my friend actually text back with a page full of XXs bless her...it must be difficult for them to know what to say...n i dont want them to think they cant talk to me if im that way out...its all still fairly new to everyone..maybe it will settle down eventually....thanx for the cyber flowers...theyre my faves...n the cyber choccys were delicious..but no good for my cyber diet...lol..thanx for taking the time to message me..take care...
I've been getting that way out this weekend so todayI took myself out of the house for the day so I didn't sit here getting antsy. It'll also (I hope) mean I sleep better tonight. I've just had a long wait before next round of treatment starts - find out what it is tomorrow. glad your friend's been back in touch - it's hard for everyone, isn't it...
Hi K...yes it is hard on everyone....family, friends ,workmates..ive had tremendous support off every one of them...n i thank God for them all...i think maybe i was just lashing out before...like i said i was a right nowty sod...lol...i think its passed now...n being allowed to rant on here n being understood by people like yourself helps a lot...lol...i know im not alone feeling this way....im not going crazy...
Ah well... tomorrows another day...maybe il hear then about my treatment...thanx for your message...take care
Love Sharon xx
PS.. good luck for tomorrow with your treatment xx
