Is it time to celebrate ?

Hi all Hope everyone had a good x mas and that 2009 will bring all that you wish and hope for. I am nearing the end of my chemo course and have only one more to get next week, it will be fantastic to feel well again without all the side effects, however i am a bit apprehensive about cutting ties with the chemo ward and the district nurses who have been doing weekly bloods and central line care, has anyone else felt like this ? not that i want more chemo God no- but cant help thinking that i will feel a bit abandoned without the security of this weekly contact and knowing that i could relay any worries about any aches and pains etc to the nurses or medical staff for reassurance or investigations if necessary, i still have radiotherapy to get but dont feel it will be the same as from what i have heard it is in and out as quickly as possible for your ssession. I wonder if this is now the time when i should try and put this whole cancer episode in my life behind me and moove on ! is it easier said than done ? has anyone else reached this stage and if so was it easy to step onto the next stage of your life. On a cheerier note my son arrived home for x mas from Australia, it was a complete surprise and wonderful to see him after 2 years away, he is hear for a month so lots of time to catch up. On reflection Chemo sessions havent been too bad, mouth ulcers and nausea have been the worst side effects but the staff on chemo ward have been fantastic and found a solution to all my side effects ,O K they had to reduce the dose of the most toxic drug to stop the mouth ulcers taking over but stop them it did and they are confident that the reduction will have no effect on the overall outcome so now that i am nearing the end of treatment i can only trust them and hope for the best. Take care Shamrock