hi i'm really scared at moment. i went to docs last week as i was in pain thought i had a bladder infection but that came back clear. all weekend i was in agony could hardly walk and i had a temperature. saw the nurse yesterday who gave me antibiotics but booked me to see my doctor today. he's unsure of whats going on and is phoning my oncologist to arange a ct scan just in case the cancer has spread or come back. i came back and cried i cant tell my parents as i dont want to worry them as dad hasn't been too well and they live 90 miles away.my neighbour was great and came and sat with me. i sit here and say to myself pull yourself together it could be nothing and i'm worrying fo no reason, the rest of me just thinks after everything that happened last year a bit longer in remission would be great. not only did i get diognosed with the cancer my daughter lost two babies the last one on christmas eve. i just booked my holiday for next month and now this. it seems every time i have something to look forward to something happens to spoil it. how much more can i take. sha
