my cancer is back

hi everyone i saw my oncologist today not good news. my colon cancer has returned and is pressing on my bladder. this is why i wasnt well last week, i have a bladder infection but they done a ct scan just in case. i'm glad they did. i'm having a camera put into my bladder tomorrow (not looking forward to this) so see if its spread to the bladder. what my oncologist has said is that they might beable to operate and remove the colon and any bladder if its affected. i wont know this until my appointment with the surgeon hopefully on 4th feb.if they cant operate its chemo. as for my holiday to florida on 11th feb i'll have to wait and see if i can go. i hope so my girls were looking forward to it. on a good side my liver is still ok. i was hoping the cancer would stay in remission a bit longer. i'm very scared but i'm staying positive for my girls and for my well being, one day at a time. telling my mum and dad was hard as they live so far away. all my family live away so i know mum and dad have support. sha xx