12 months since rads finished , 18 months since surgeries. I am one year into hormone therapy and boy what a poopy 12 months. Joint pain, a forced menapause and all that goes with that , and most recently im on a downer with the fellow human race !! . Everyone around me has got on with their lives and seem to think things are back to normal. The only steadfast two are hubby - who struggles because he has clinical depression - so , bless him he has his own worries and usually survives in his own bubble - so im left a bit on my own to cope, and my 20 year old daughter who is a typical 20 year old, but does care. some das im ok but some days i feel crap, i dont tend to moan as i always have that - i just have to get on with it - attitude, however i do sometimes wish someone would care and at least ask if im ok, wait for my answer and then offer some support - but they never do !!! . i went through a stage of not being open, my councillor said be open and honest, so i did and now no one asks, i think my honesty has scared em off. ohh well, im narked today because my father in law (84)had an op for a cancerous poly on his bowel yesterday and the family - my hubbys side, cos i have none, are all running round and making a fuss, ok ....yes im narked cos basically when i was having my surgeries and diagnosis, they all pissed off and left us to it -- perhaps because they didnt know how to cope , but it still hurts me.my hubby was literally suicidal because of his clinical depression and i was having to cope with my own diagnosis and cater for his needs too.
ohh well, perhaps ive turned into a right grumpy , and bitter person , i hope not
beevergirlxx
