It has taken me a while to get back online as I have not been feeling great. Had a central line put in on the same day as my first chemo (3rd Dec) - made the mistake of saying I should be alright without the sedative. If anyone else has this option - take the sedative! I think I must just be a big baby. Anyway, had the first round of Taxotere. Will remember to take the sickness tablets religiously next time but wasn't too bad. However, very achey and couldn't get comfortable or sleep over the next few days. A load of spots came up on my face, a rash on my chest and then a urine infection (a bit like bad cystitis). Temperature was OK this whole time but rang the hospital and they told me to come in to test my bloods. They then told me I had a zero count for neutrophils and would need to keep me in hospital to give me intravenous antibiotics. I stayed in for five days and was incredibly down and feeling bad for the first couple of days as I couldn't handle it. The nurses were very good - one in particular hit the nail on the head when we were talking as I am pretty much scared of everything this time round. She helped me to get signed up for some support to talk to someone which will happen next week. I will probably just cry the whole time as I find I am very weepy.
Eventually back home and they said for the next round of Taxotere they will reduce the dose by 20% and that my husband can give me an injection to boost my white blood cells the day after my next chemo. Had the chemo on 24th Dec, injection on Xmas day and now waiting to see what happens. Really hope it is better this time. I am still scared of what will happen and everyone else seems to be so capable and brave. Am feeling achey again today but can cope. Night time is the worst when I can't sleep. I am sure I can't be the only one who doesn't know if they can cope with any more chemo?
I know that this is a bit of an essay but it helps me to write it down and go over it in my mind - I seem to be doing that a lot.
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