I've got two appointments tomorrow, one with the original specialist and then straight after that a meeting with the oncologist and nurse. I'm hoping they confirm the existing suspicion that the primary cause is testicualr and this is what has spread through my lymph systm and that I can start the chemo (and I'll assume that is going to BEP, and could start as soon as Friday?). Also steeling myself should the news be different - I'm part dreading the appointment but also want to get it over and on to treatment. Whatever the prognosis, next step is treatment whether that is palliative or steps to a cure. I've also been setting myself a mid-term reward - if everything goes well then I've promised myself a trip to see the Northern Lights in a year's time. So many things I wish I'd done earlier seem more urgent.
At the moment the symptoms are pretty minor, and it almost feels fraudulent to tell people I have cancer, and yet I know it is there.
So, by 2pm tomorrow I should know what regimen I'm on.
