Hi
I just need to write something to get it off my chest. I am at work and cannoit concentrate.
Twelve years ago I had ovarian cancer and am fine. Five years ago I had thyroid cancer and again an fine. Several weeks ago I experienced some changes in bowel habit, only for a week but long enough to make me think something was not quite right. To cut a long story short, two weeks ago I had a rigid sigmoidoscopy and because the registrar could not see enough (apparently the suppository had not worked - didn't feel like that to me!) so he asked for a CT scan and colonoscopy and fairly urgently. I had the CT scan on Friday and have the colonoscopy this Wednesday. My mind has been going from there is nothing wrong to I have cancer again.
My husband is loving and supportive but this has completely thrown him and he is in such a state and panic about it all. I can't really talk to him exactly how I feel as I know it will upset him even more and he is so worried now. Today, it has hit me that something may wellbe wrong and for the first time I am really really worried. I just hope they can tell me something from the colonscopy onm Wednesday, even if it is not the news I want. I keep asking myself, why am I having this done so quickly? It is just belt and braces because of my history or is he really worried. Brain tells me one thing, stomach says the other!
It sound stragne but I just need to know. I can face it if it is bad news, done it twice and do it again.
On a moee trivial point, I am very hungry today and tomorrow is going to be worse! I tried a plain mashed egg sandwich with white bread for lunch, no butter no mayo. Shan't be having that again, ever!
Sarah
