Ive worked myself up and feel really down, just had phone call from consultant who is arranging a date to have the lump removed from my right breast, i just feel i have started all over again .
I was so happy that i was in remission and now ive started all over again. Im scared that it will kill me in the end.
Im off work at the moment and maybe paranoia is taking over but l think too much time on your hands dosent help as you can talk yourself into the worst scenario, which isnt good.
This is the only place i feel i can express my feelings and i dont want to worry the people close to me. maybe i need a kick up the bum but im finding this all so hard, any support or wise words would be welcome as It just feels harder this time than last time if that makes sense- nothing does at the moment.
FormerMember
Hi Sarah,
I'm sure this is only a blip in your resolve-you will come up again and feel better than at this time. In my humble opinion it sounds as if you should talk to 1 or 2 of your nearest and dearest-I'm sure they would want to know that you are feeling so dreadful and want to comfort you, it's a mistake to keep it all in all the time.They are with you on this journey so they have to ride it with you!
Linda X
P.S. Somehow you will find your fighting spirit again and beat this shitty thing again!!
