feeling down

I have been back to my consultant today for my results from bloods, scans etc and have been informed that l have a lump in my left breast which l knew was there, he said he will arrange for me to go into hospital and have it removed and then have the relevant tests to confirm if it is cancer or tissue at which he will then discuss further treatment if needed. l cant believe it , been in remission since 5th of january for breast cancer in my right breast and now i feel im back to square one with issues in my left breast It may be nothing but it never seems to end. I just want to move on with my life but it feels that there is always something getting in my way especially my health recently Ive got gynae on 11th may for investigation into endmetrosis and fertility tests, so i feel my whole body is having an mot. I just feel really low and tearful at the moment , normally im fairly strong person but im just so tired and fed up with getting bad news. l really thought it had all come to an end but now i feel im starting all over again. l know l cant do do anything and shouldnt fear the worse but i cant help it- im just scared im never going to be free of this illness and paranoid that im going to die from it eventually. i know there are people worse off from me and that i should thank my lucky stars that im not in there postion but my emotions take over and lose the plot i know im being silly but i just feel overwhelmed at the moment.