We were told on Thursday evening that my Dads cancer had spread. He had a large tumor removed a couple of months ago and it has returned with a vengence. He has adenocarcinoma of the salivary gland. Its quite rare so im told so would be good to hear of anyone with experience of it. I feel so ANGRY, (as im sure everyone does) because i feel that the doctors really dragged their feet with diagnosing and his operation to remove the original tumor. I feel so useless as usually I can fix things but this time, I don't stand a chance. My pops is 78 but so fit its unbelievable, apart, of course from this vicious disease. I feel quite strong today but I have days when I just break down and cant control my tears, which is no good for Dad. Hes been in hospital since Monday and will be there till next Friday when his 5 sessions of radiotherapy ends. I cant seem to win as I have been visiting everyday staying for several hours because I just hate the thought of him being on his own there, but in doing this im neglecting my family of a husband (who's been great ) and my 3 boys. For this I feel really guilty. On top of that my Mums mental health is poor so I have to keep an eye on her too. Im not resentful, im really not but im scared of what the future will hold. The thought of my Dad not being here is unbearable.
