Poison me some more why dont ya!!

Well its been a lengthy spell since my last post..been getting a bit of jip off friends and fam for not having honoured this blog board with witty reposts and light hearted banter. plus I thought id just make sure that you all know im doing well :) So let me begin by updating matters.. Im being POISONED.....and its not nice!! If you look at the pictures Ive uploaded, one will no doubt be able to assume that certain hair loss has taken place. as was fully expected. and it hasnt stopped there, of course all of you who have had to endure this terrible symptom will already know...it doesnt stop there...But thankfully what with having such an athletic physique anyway...the loss of BODY hair has only served to transform me into an smooth bodied olympic swimmer capable of cutting through water like a razor though butter!. well.....maybe....If I switch off the big light and turn three quarters and suck in a little.. Chemo - bloody- therapy.....?? its therapeutic is it??. to have your insides knotted and spend all day burping and thinking your going to throw up last years christmas dinner.? therapeutic to have a ringing in your ears and wonder if your going to have to buy an eyebrow pencil when eventually your real ones are stuck to the pillow one morning??. Ive thought about this..I might buy some double sided sticky tape -- and when the buggers are hanging on for dear life....Ill whip the tape over 'em then peel off the reverse side...and stick em back on....maybe upside down!! just for a laugh. Or I could have a Mr Benn type array of disgusies, different cut out and stick on eyebrows to suit ones mood..Puzzled. Surprised, Furios, Curious...the list goes on. Im 5 weeks into a 9 week course up at Jimmys in Leeds - and they're good. the food however is not so good. So its brown bread sandwiches for me im afraid. but its not a hotel is it. Ive spent my second period of 3 days in hosp..and been going for once a week top ups of Bleomycin...which has been seriously affecting my lungs so my docs have omitted 2 of the 4 possible occasions to give it me coz it dusny agree wiv me. Im receiving BEP chemo - Bleo - Etoposide - Cisplatin. and its not going too bad. Shortness of breath, knotted insides......erm...BALD head!! anyone noticed? but Id say im doing ok..and after sharing a room with 3 other men in Jimmys last week that were all worse off than me..I took a lot strength from their courage and thought that Id should be very thankful for the early diagnosis of my Cank...coz some of those boys were not so lucky. Chris. Les and George...all strong men. Finally Id just like to add that I was given a visit by a Macmillan Social Worker - Elaine - who looked at my case for help towards travel expenses and duly delivered..Macmillan have honoured me with a grant towards paying my Car Tax so I can still travel to leeds for treatment and do my normal business - this is my way of going on the record to say I will do MY BIT to raise money for Macmillan as soon as im fit and well again. coz they are very very welcome :) Ok thats enough waffle - hope everyone is clinging on and looking forward to at least SOME of this summer. I will be back soon with various other stupid photos....all the best :) Robert