Well, today is a sad sad day, and I dont know where to go or what to do, so thought I would try and blog it out. Trouble is I dont even know what to say. I have lost a truly wonderful friend, who I really really cared about. Strange how people on here can mean so much to you even though you never actually meet. The thing is out of everyone on here, although I love you all to absolute pieces, I think my beautiful Kath…
Well we have started treatment. First radio wasnt so bad physically, not sure how i will be feeling after 6 weeks of this but we will see. Have first chemo tomorrow.Just feeling totally overwhelmed right now. The reality of it all is scary. Till now I guess I have protected my brain from really facing the reality of the situation. I know I have been worried and all that, but sitting there yesterday waiting for radio was…
How do you answer the question "How are you today?" when things have gotten so far from normal. Do you just simple smile and say ok, when deep down you are far from being ok. Or not too bad, is that more appropriate. Seems like these words and phrases are made for when life is peaches and roses, and when your worries are what your going to have for dinner and is your washing going to dry in time, or that your feet or…
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Only have 5 minutes to wirte this before I have to go to my onc appointment to find out how bad the recurrance is and what treatment etc is needed, but realy need to blurt for a bit.
So on top of all this worry and fear about this appointment today, which to be honest although I do try and be big tough and brave has realy not been very easy, this morning I woke up to an email to say that I got a job…
Well, at least I managed to get throug the mri this time without a complete meltdown. Drugs certainly do help to calm the nerves, lol. And now we have the nervous wait to find out if the cancer is localised to the original spot, or has spread. Am not very good at this part. So many emotions have been bought back to the surface of the bubbling couldrin that is me, and all these new ones on top threaten to make me explode…
