How do you answer the question "How are you today?" when things have gotten so far from normal. Do you just simple smile and say ok, when deep down you are far from being ok. Or not too bad, is that more appropriate. Seems like these words and phrases are made for when life is peaches and roses, and when your worries are what your going to have for dinner and is your washing going to dry in time, or that your feet or a little sore because you have been rushing around all day.Yet now the standard responses seem to fail me. It is not ok, that any of this ever had to happen to me or anyone else. So for now surviving seems to be a more appropriate response. Kind of sums up everything, what I was, I was a survivor of cancer; what I am now, I am surviving having to go through cancer a second time; and what I hope for, I hope to survive this yet again.
But for now, we have to focus on surviving the next lot of treatment. Chemoradiation for 6 weeks, then brachytherapy, (which is really scaring the pants off of me so any adivice or experiences of surviving brachy would be great) but we will get there.With the love and support of family and friends we will get there.
Anyway love and hugs to you all
Robynn
PS: Not sure whether it is just me, but somehow everything seems much calmer after I write my little blogs. Always did say I was a little weird.
