Struggling

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FormerMember

2 Feb 2010

Well am finding it really difficult tonight so thought i just would write some stuff down. Get it out there and then maybe I can get some sleep.

Have my appointment with my consultant tommorrow to find out what treatment plan is. Except I already know whether it is just surgery or chemo/radiation either way my husband and I will never be able to hav the family we wanted. Im only 28. I know I should be focussing on getting better and staying alive but I am just stuck dwelling on this and cant seem to get past it so I can focus on treatment.

Honestly sometimes I just think I would give up everything just to be able to have this family even if it meant I wasnt going to be around for very long. I just dont want to go to see the consultant.

I just dont want any of this to be happening. I dont want to have to deal with it. I just am not strong enough.

Just want to either find a way to get past this issue, or find the courage to refuse treatment if I know I cant live without a family.

Its just all too hard!!!!!!!!!!!!

sue G over 15 years ago

Hi Robynn

My heart goes out to you. You will find the strength to fight this thing.

Find out tomorrow about your treatment plan.

Your husband needs you and together you can work out different options regarding a family I am sure.

You are 28 and have the strength to go on. I know things look bleak at the moment and you think you cannot cope. You will I know.

Thinking of you.

Sue xxxxx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi Robynn,

Who says you dont have the strength to deal what lies ahead. You will get the strength from the heart and the mind and your loving Husband. You will get the strenght from all the fantastic people on this site with their understanding and love. We are all here to listen and to care.

Good Luck to you both for tomorrow.

Take care and be Safe. Sarsfield.xx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

HI Robynn

You and your husband will find the strength to get through this. I know you are wanting to have a family but I am sure that being alive is more important although it doesn't seem that way to you at the moment. I will be thinking about you both tomorrow so please let me know how you get on.

Take care Carol XX
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

just wondering as i dont know anything about cervical cancer.....if you havent had any treatment yet, and you dont know what treatment your having....how do you know for sure you wont be able to have a family.....

like i sai i dont know anything about cervical cancer....is it a case of if you get that you just cant have any children..
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

hi graeme

For cervical cancer if they catch it early, then it can be treated surgically but that means having a hysterectomy. If it is stage 2 or higher they treat with chemo/radiation. The radiation will induce menopause permanently.

Had mri last week to find out whether they have found it early enough in which case I have an operation or if not chemo/radiation but either way no family.
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