The last 24 hours or so

This is my 3rd blog on here, and I still feel lik i dont belong, think that is what we all feel though. Yesterday my mum was going to Rotherham hospital to have a Bronchoscopy, I had very mixed feelings about this as it was the first real appointment that my mum has had since we found out that she had Lung cancer and secondry Brain tumour, Me and my partner picked my mum up at 10am and made our way there, the mod was sooooo quite in the car on the way there. When we got there my mum felt so relax as she has worked at the hospital for many years as a auxilery nurse before she retiered a few years ago, She had her bloods taked and blew into a massive machine to see how well her lungs were working and then went for the Bronchoscopy, she was so brave, she didnt have any sedative she jus took it on the chin and did it. when we left the hospital she was really hungry so we called and got fish and chips at her request, o and 3 slices of bread and butter.. Today I went back to see the GP, Me and mum see the same one and he has signed me off for 2 weeks,, I just want to spend every minute with mum right now and I know that she wants me there too, While I was there I asked the GP how bad is it with mum and he said that it was bad and that he may not be here at Christmas, I keep thinking that some one is going to ring me to say " Sorry we have made a mistake " but I know that it is not going to happen. I have made my self a promise that me and mum are going to have a fab few months and are going to really get to know each other, as daft as it sounds i was thinking today I dont even know her fave colour? how daft is that? We are still waiting for a treatment plan so I hope that it comes soon, Sorry for all the bad spelling on here lol and Thanks to all of you that have sent me msgs prev, I eally appreciae them and I really enjoy reading all of your blogs. Be strong Rob xx