so im a little bit lost and a little bit scared....

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FormerMember

3 Sep 2010

Its been a cupple of days since my last blog when i found out my cancer was terminal and being offered a clinicaltrail to prolong and increase my quality of life...i still dont really know how i feel,ive taken care of most of the practical issues...i.e thinking about the future, talking to my daughters dad whom i am no longer with and now what? ive got nothing left to do for now....and i think i think about it more when i yhave nothing to occupy my mind....i have has a long telephone conversation with my gp today who told me my start date for this clinical trail and it starts on the 20th of this month...so fingers crossed....all i can say is i feel a little lost...like mins are turning into hours and hours are turning into days....time just seems to be slipping away so to speak and time is something i want to keep hold of for as long as i can.

Im scared half to death but im keeping my head up high and getting on with it so to sdpeak.....

emmaxxxx

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Emma, I' so sorry to hear about your prognosis, but keep postive and active as long as you can. You seem to have sorted out the practicalties, so now just get on with making the most of what time you have left. It is important to make sure your daughter has happy memories, so take each day as it comes, and try to do something special whenever you can. I find that I get a lot of strength from the support of all my friends, lots of love and hugs all help. Laughing is a good tonic too - my onc says we need a laughter club to help the feel good factor!

keep smiling, love n hugs

Viv XXX
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Emma,

All I can do is wish you all the best with your trials.

You are a very loving caring and understanding.

Being able to chat to your children about your illness and treatment takes a lot of guts,Good luck

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

hi thank you all for your reply's, just having a bad day today i think which we all do from time to time, but ive got my head on that 2moro is another day!!! And im going to pick myself up dust myself down and have a fantastic weekend. Im going to spend the weekend with my family and enjoy lots of laughter, maybe a few tear's :) ive done my day of mopeing hope everyone has a fantastic weekend xxxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

hi emma,, have read your blogs and if you were near i would give you the biggest hug ( bet your so glad that your not then lol xx ) i cannot imagine how your feeling but try and stay strong and i hope that a clinical trial will prove good for you,, my husband is also hoping to take part we need to keep going and try what ever we can,, look after yourself i will be thinking about you xx teresa xx
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