Kept a wee kind of blog my op and the last two weeks , may help some others 
Tuesday 27th
Dreading tomorrow , hopefully get it done , get the all clear and get back some normality. Went to Costco and got some stuff but mind already on tomorrow . Early start.
Wednesday 28th
Up early and at hospital by about 6:40. Only in about 30 mins and an enema given , no dignity left soon. Time passed quick and before you know it , I’m up at the theatre . Don’t remember much but woke around 4 pm feeling like I had been hammered . Rest of the day a total blur tbh.
Thursday 29th
Got to try and get up and moving today . Managed to get semi dressed and wander to coffee machine and Louise was down , she has been down all the time and stayed late , will be knackered ! Not going home today , best stay another night . Never realised this op would be quite as draining or severe !
Friday 30th.
Louise came down about 1030 and I had been up early and packed , desperate to get home . Going to take time and I’m not patient . Louise has changed one of the wee bedrooms into an office , it’s smashing . Boys came to house to see me and was shattered by teatime . Sleep in chair as have this bag attached .
Saturday 31st
Louise putting the coupons on today Worked , we some £108. Getting bored and want to get out but confidence . Worry about this bag , meant to come off Wednesday , please…..
Sunday 1st
A quiet day , watched Rangers, couldn’t improve my mood . Now on countdown to Wednesday and bag off hopefully .
Monday 2nd .
The wee office is grand , managed to sit and do an hour or so . it passed the time well. A wee walk round the block today, was knackered but didn’t say .
Tuesday 3rd.
Managed to walk to Tesco Edinburgh Rd and bought … a paper 
Tomorrow fingers crossed the bag is off . Hopefully get back to some normality soon .
Wednesday 4th.
Early start to head through to Edinburgh . Scan and bag can come off , great ! Bad news is I can’t control my bladder , sitting down or standing up I just have no control. Feel terrible as this feels like I’m setback again . Will I ever be any better ???
Thursday 5th
Slept in chair again as don’t want to ruin our bed . Louise will think it’s her but it’s me and I’m worrying now if things will ever be the same . Feel miles away from it . Mental health at an all time low . Just feel like shit .
Friday 6th
Watching the curling and trying to do a wee bit work to take my mind off things . In the morning I feel positive today , as day goes on , my mood drops. Try wee walk round the block , good to get out . Was going to go to bed but just can’t settle and up to go downstairs at 230 am. Trying to sort my head out .
Saturday 7th
Didn’t wake until 730 am and feel positive , try and keep this mood today. Coupons on , small win and loads of sport on tv so a quicker day. Dribbles have improved today , if I can improve by 1% a day maybe ?? Tea time I’m feeling decent and want better mood to continue . Round the block twice today, near 3000 steps . I’ve got to be determined and man up a bit .
Sunday 8th
Slept in bed last night , up at 545 but was decent . Mixed day, had 2 decent walks as this may help my control. But from afternoon on the pads were soaking , god knows why 
Can’t sleep now tonight for worrying , thought I was on the mend but obviously not.
Keep calm and hopefully just a blip. I really hope this is just a blip , couldn’t cope with months of this , was looking to improve by time I am back at Spire .
Monday 9th
Watched telly quite late and was restless , got up about 730 and did some work for an hour , good start to day.Hoping to do 5000 steps a day now to build up and did nearly 3000 this morning . Productive morning but nightmare trying to get Adam from Drumhar , easier walking to the moon . Of course they called back when I was in the toilet so dribbled all the way up the hall . Only to say they couldn’t help !
Tuesday 10th
Up early again and fell asker in the chair so missed Doctor at 8am. Called at 08:10 and hopefully sorted for a call back Doc called back and erectile dysfunction script to be sent today . Did over 3000 on morning walk , a bit work and breakfast . Started fancy tea that’s meant to help lose weight , we will see. Maybe town today??? Did manage a brief visit to office, bookie and a coffee , it’s a start .
Wednesday 11th
Up at back of 5 again ! Pad very little as I had leaked out side when turning over . Feel yesterday’s was best day but then you get dragged right back down . Walking must be helping , two days on trot over 5000. Will be aiming for at least that today and see how we go. Been told I’m on the list for the continence clinic , appointment in 10 weeks , don’t bother . Absolute joke
