MRI results back today at last. Tumour is bigger than at first thought, is 3.5cm with ill defined edges and appears to have grown (knew it!) since the last time I saw him 2 weeks ago. To me that doesn't sound good!
Said my options were, chemo first to try and shrink it then have excision, or mastectomy (which he recommended, as high grade and invasive) Also said they could reconstruct there and then, or later. Advised against instant reconstruction as if have radiotherapy could cause problems to the reconstructed breast. At the moment reconstruction is the least of my worries, although I realise I may feel differently later on.
I have also been told that it is oestrogen negative and progesterone negative. Nothing back about HER status yet. (How long does that take?) He also said "IF" I was offered chemo, that it would probably commence 4 to 6 weeks after surgery all being well. Why is it now if, when before it was when????
Feeling a little sorry for myself at the moment as am thinking that he thinks it's not worth wasting money on chemo for me as I am a hopeless case!! God, I hate what an overactive imagination does to you. If HER negative too think chemo is the only option isn't it??? So many questions.
So still booked for surgery on the 2nd, but now I know it will definately be a mastectomy. Haven't the first idea about underwear etc after surgery. Have ordered a magazine off the internet that someone recommended but still not here yet.
Am starting to panic a bit now as surgery day is drawing nearer. Is a very strange mix of emotions, can't wait for surgery to get rid of it, but at the same time am scared to death!!! I am sure lots of you can relate to those feelings.
Well that's my neurotic ranting over for today, hope everyone is as well as they can be.
Take care. Love and hugs. Debbie. xx
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Hi Debbie
I think any of us that have had to have surgery can relate to where you're coming from. I'd never had surgery before and it's the fear of the unknown that gets to you. Try not to read too much into how the consultant spoke (when or if) just deal with each hurdle as it comes along...one day at a time.
Wishing you all the best for your surgery on 2nd and look forward to hearing of your progress.
Hi Debbie,sorry to hear you are all over the place today. I know that feeling of terror. You are perfectly entitled to feel sorry for yourself. I think we all have days like that. As for the overactive imagination, well.................that's something we all suffer from I think, never goes away. Understandable really. I hope all goes well with your surgery and subsequent treatment. Take good care of yourself. Love, Christine xx
i´m scared to death too ......my sons op on monday ...just found out today
like you know it needs to be done ...but bl··dy scary all the same!
he´s bouncing about it ..... although prob like you they have said this might happen or that might happen ....they dont really now till they operate
bl··dy ell tell me to SHUT up!!!
i was going to say about your questions ...havent you got a specialst nurse that you can fone and ask her to clarify? ....what i do know is that your docs will do whats best for you and my sons docs whats best for him
