Feeling a bit sad today as just finished my last shift before my op. 1 weeks leave and then on the sick from beginning of op week.
My colleagues have been absolutely wonderful, though suprised to see me at work. I am not sure when I will go back as due to infection risk/stress/workload/needing to be on top of my game, I am not sure if will be up to working during my chemo.
Have been told to play it by ear, as no one knows how it will affect me. I will certainly miss it and hope they don't all forget me!!!
Still wonder how old children have to be before everything stops being just about them! My eldest here whwn I got in from work, had made my lunch (bless her) and tidied up (after a fashion) but 20 mins after me being in asked my opinion about something, then went off in a strop when she didn't like the answer I gave her!! Oh to be young. Lol.
I have been comfort eating a lot lately and the hubby keeps buying me chocolate to "cheer me up". Don't have the heart to say thanks, but no thanks, so end up scoffing the lot. Think I will be rolling to hospital at this rate.
Planning a blitz on the house tomorrow as I am hoping to go away the weekend before my op and don't want to come back to it all.
Hope I don't sound too ungrateful, moany and miserable. Think I just need to accept that this is going to be a new chapter in my life and roll with it.
Take care, love and hugs. Debbie. xx
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That's exactly what I did before I went for surgery, blitzed everywhere, knowing that I wouldn't be able to do it for a number of weeks after surgery. I have been lucky though as my sister has come to stay with us and she has been doing all the housework and ironing (and there's plenty of that with 2 sons of 23 and 25 plus husband).
Don't knock the chocolate - hey, a little bit of what you fancy does you good - plenty of time to diet!
I'm sure all your colleagues will be keeping in touch. My workmates have been fantastic, both before and after my surgery. I get a sheet of messages when my payslip is sent to me and it really cheers me up. They have been such a support. Like you, I'm not sure about when I'll return to work. The oncology nurse told me that the chemo will affect my immune system for so many days and then there's the tiredness. I guess it's a case of playing it by ear.
good luck with your clean -up (although i think id leave it a tip ...and leave a list of jobs for them lot to do whilst i was away ...lol!!!!!) and of course good luck with ur op!
Its good to have a moan - and why shouldn't we? After all we have got something to moan about - unlike one of my friends who is at the docotrs with a spot on her big toe!
I am going in for my op - today. Have to be there at 10.30 am op planned for this afternoon.
The flat is a tip and its staying like that!
I think you have done well managing to go to work - I was such a wreck the doc signed me off straight away - I have popped in to try and sort things out - I felt guilty leaving everything in a mess.
Funny you should mention blitzing your flat. I start chemo next Tuesday and I am now (except for this minute, of course) in the middle of decorating the bedroom - anybody would think I'm pregnant!! I guess that, like you, I am 'getting my house in order' as they say, on the assumption that I won't want to do this stuff later. But, perhaps I'm wrong - for me that's the bad bit, not knowing what's coming, but I get the feeling after just one day browsing posts on this site that perhaps things may never really be as bad as we're currently imagining they will be. I too have left work for the time being -and hoping to make the best of this unscheduled and unexpected break :-) I hope your op goes well and that you make a good and speedy recovery.
