Well things have been very busy over last few months and since my cancer went into remision, but maybe someone can tell me how angry should i be that i was told my cancer was back. Just before xmas last year , a year after my treatment ,i wastold it looked like it back ,the ct looked like it was back but she not sure cos she could not read it but she was certain. refered me to sugeon who was only option now, For 3 weeks i kept this bomb shell to myself , did not want ot ruin another xmas for my kids , so thought wait and see surgeon see what time scale he had for me then go home and talk to my children . But op would not be till after xmas so at least we have that before hos visits started again.
Whats that quote about "best laid plans " and all that .
Went to see surgeon and he examined me and was adamant that the cancer WAS NOT BACK .
went home with the mixed emotions of relief and anger . For the time being the relief won.
But did wonder about the CT what was it she thought she saw . But i was not going to get to ask her as not appoinments were given .Also due to my pe the year earlier ,she said i did not need to inject blood thnners any more as "would be ok now as it nearly a year " I quieried about warfrin ,and again told do not need it . So went home feelin ok ish as my tummy was a mass of bruises from the jabs, 3 weeks later back in hos with multi PE, in lungs and one in leg , so hey jan again spent in hospital, .
And since that time well my body letting me down in other way, but at the back of my mind is , after alll this and i get some sort of normality is that when i have to be concerned about my cancer coming back . mmmm I wonder , I just want some life back to be and do things , not expecting to have someone share my life again but after all this friends are a bit thin on the ground too . But there are other s so much worse off than me and i remeind my self of that when i feel low, it works,, most of the time lol, there are times a hug would be wonderfull too,
wheres my teddy ?????????
FormerMember
Not when I am near.
virtual hugs can be great too
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I know what you mean about friends thin on the ground although I never had more than a hand count on one hand,a few more would be nice as long as they are quality,quantity is not important
Paul
xx gentlemanly kisses,one each cheek....should that really be xx & XX hahahaha
<p>My husband has been diagnosed with anal cancer and have joined as quite a shock for us all. Thinking your cancer might return is awful but probably anyone could easily also get cancer. Perhaps some mathematician could work out the odds. I very much hope you don't have it back and think you are very brave</p>
