I have been "missing" for quite some time now, but am kind of back....
Took the idea into my head to do an Diploma Course online and what a great idea it was, has really kept me occupied, busy and certainly helped keep my mind of things.
That said, went for it hell for leather and grew obsessional about progressing mega quick. Think I thought something was chasing me and would eat me up if I didn't keep up the pace.
Was floored by Pneumonia and that slowed me down and even stopped treatment early, OH FECK! some will do anything to get a bloody break eh?
Have thankfully nearly recovered and am pleased for that, course is nearly finished too, have so beat my targets hands down.
The question is though, shooks what do I do next? Am back at Hosp tomorrow to find out what is next in the line of treatment. Found myself blubbing like a baby, just like in the early Mac days.
Really didn't realise how much I had shelved the big C and am in kind of shock at the prospect of results and plans. Just what am I going to do with my time now??
Kind of got used to poor levels of support but some folk have remained brilliant and supportive and am back in touch with an old friend who was really mad I hadn't gotten in touch. That is really positive and family seem to be dealing with things better, but the supportive sister is far too busy now- Did bring big present a while ago on a flying visit. Seems like people can discharge their duties if they do a big demonstrative thing> hey hum.
Am much better on the computer now thanks to all my studying!
Am pleased with myself for my strength of character and despite looking rough and well older, am still "at it" hate the term survivor, but I think that must be a good description of me right now)
lots of love to all those suffering and newly diagnosed.
xx
FormerMember
Thanks to you all for your kind words.
The news was not good, but not terribly bad either. I started another 4-6 weeks of radio and some chemo to be expected yesterday.
So glad I have passed the course and will frame my certificate when it comes in a gilt frame. That course was more about my survival and determination that the subject itself, it is and always be the thing that inspires me and proves my strength kind of...
Well, I have the next 6 weeks to struggle through. Seems strange to still be having treatment nearly six months on but am glad they didn't tell me that in the beginning, am pretty sure they didn't know to be honest but seems goal posts have been dancing a bit.
I am now thinking maybe I should finally learn to drive.....
I am sure you will get a lot of suggestions for what to do next!! None spring to mind immediately from me I am afraid so driving sounds like a plan and as my moto goes, never give up in a goal because of the time it takes as the time will pass anyway. I hope the next 6 weeks pass quickly for you :-( xx
