I lost my hubby paul last september. I miss him so much. It haunts me more now of the terrible pain he suffered and his fight to stay alive then it did when we was living through it .
Is there anybody out there like me / Paul was 54 when he died. he had lung that spread to his bone cancer. In the end it was every where. he lived just a few days under a year from diagnosis.
It was the most dreadfull and sole destroying time of my life . Plus I nursed my dad who lived 6 months after being diagnosed on the same day as Paul
I never expected to be a widow at 54 ?
I just cant seem to get over the pain and cruelness of it
We had some lovely times together in that year but it all gets over shadowed by all this
