Well, my husband had his 10 days radiotherapy in Dec.09 (not Nov.as I said previously) which he sailed through with only minor tiredness.
Christmas and New Year were spent very quietly, on our own. How difficult it is to make conversation when both are watching the same television programmes and only talking to the MacMillan Nurse every ten or so days.
The only follow-up appointment my husband has is with the Oncologist on the 18th Feb. Our Mac Nurse says that this is only to ask, 'How did you cope with radiotherap?'. That's it. A feeling of abandonment, again, when I really need to know why my husband, who was always a gentleman, is talking to me like I've just fallen off his shoe, is so aggressive and argumentative. My nerves are frazzled and yes, I am walking on eggshells.
He's also finding it hard to think straight. You know, leaping from silly topic to another silly topic and then sometimes replying with words that have nothing to do with what I've said. Oh dear, he's now just told me that he's never had Branston Pickle in his life....What?
I quietly asked the Mac Nurse if she thought that something bad was going on. She said that as my husband isn't suffering from headaches then she didn't think so, and as the 1 per day morphine capsule has been decreased in strength, neither she or the G.P. had an answer.
I really hope that this is a phase. Perhaps he is counting the months and worrying himself to death and just can't tell me and so just gets angry.
Anybody had experience of this? Please God, don't let this attitude get any worse.
Any replies really appreciated.
Much love to all,
Tricia. XXX (The rabbit in the headlights)
