Trying to take a positive path. Joined this community to find like minded poeple who will understand me & help me gain more knowledge about the choices still to make. Looking for a safe place to try this out, rather than random web searches. Also i dont feel like i am "bothering" people here. Family & friends have been there for me but i dont want to overburden them. Usually very independent, infact i am usually, "the helper". So a change in role for me, still feels strange & at times i get irritated by my neediness. So many new feelings, feel like still got a long vway to go emotionally. But hay! ! am here & i have started on my path. That feels good.
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Just looking at my Twitter site, Cesar Millan tweeted these words on my page,
"Take time every day to celebrate the many gifts that are hidden in the ordinary events of your own life." Cesar Millan.
Must admit in my rare angry moments I have yelled why and especially this week - which has been awful (see my blog). I do believe but I wouldn't say I am a commited christian like most people a pray to "something" but am not convinved the "something" is there as I don't think it answers. People say that God has a plan and that we have to trust he knows what is good for us - have to say that just confuses me, cos I don't understand the "big plan" or how it makes me a better person and I can't believe that what we all go through couold be deemed good. You are right it gets you thinking.
Went to work mates leaving do Friday. Clever woman organised a disco! Really great music. Felt safe because until 11pm it just for our party. Always loved dancing, so after 8 months of physio & 4 months of lymphodema clinic, thought it time to test drive me body.
Thanks to a real pretty Amonea bra, prosthesis stayed in place through me friskyness & me cool moves. (Well thats my opinion)
Disco bar open to general public after 11pm & I still dancing. Might have been due to the balloon attached to me wrist, but whatever, I also got chatted up twice. (Yes they may have been drunk men, but who cares). Good to know I still got some man whispering skills after BC.
Of course the body been protesting eversince, good job still on part time hours on return to work plan.
Friday a big day as went for first anniversary breast screen since dx, also to a fund raiser at the unit that morning aswell.
Now trying to not think about waiting for results.
Wonder when go clubbing again? Got taste for it now.
