Well, I'm really unsure how I should feel. I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago and am still waiting to feel angry or depressed or whatever, but I don't. I just keep thinking "Thank God it's me and not one of my girls, or one of my grandchildren". I always imagined I would be completely devastated if this every happened to me but, now the initial shock has worn off, I just feel - OK let's get on with it then; mind you telling my daughters the diagnosis was hard. Am I kidding myself and is my mood going to plummet without warning in the near future? Anyone out there feel the same? I suppose it's because the cancer was discovered during a routine mamogram and I have no sympstoms of ill health. I spent the weekend Christmas shopping with my eldest granddaughter and it was lovely. Life has just bowled along as normal since 'D' day. However, I'm going to see the surgeon tomorrow, so it might be a different story after that. I'll let you know.......
FormerMember
"Thank God it's me and not one of my girls, or one of my grandchildren"
Gosh that rang a bell !!!
The only thing I'm grateful to cancer for is the fact that it chose me and not my beautiful wife or son, I know if it had done I'd have done anything to have taken it for them and had it myself.
You are feeling just as you should. Just because other people are devastated and horrified, it doesn't mean you have to be. When I was diagnosed, I felt much the same. I had had a pretty horrible barium enema, which was even worse than it needed to be, but I managed to see what was on the screen, so when I went to see the surgeon a week later, I was already half prepared. I had had a very low haemoglobin count that had not responded to any iron treatment for nearly a year, so it was hardly a surprise.
I told my husband in a fairly casual way, asking him to take me to the hospital for the test, and reporting the result to him, and I think he took his reaction from mine. We told our daughter, and she geared herself up to be supportive. It seemed to be their way of dealing with it, so they were in the loop from the beginning.
I know nothing about breast cancer as the breast cancer people tell me. I have been for all the mammograms and I assume if you have been picked up from that scan, you should be in a fairly early stage, so I am hardly surprised that you are keen to "get on with it" and get it out and the chemo dealt with.
If you don't have a fairly gentle experience with this, it makes me wonder what the mammography programme is about if it doesn't resolve the problem a lot easier than it would otherwise be.
