Dad came out of hospital yesterday morning at 1.30am and was ok yesterday daytime. I went to visit this morning and mum was just of the phone to the unit again as dad was really poorly again today. I had the shock of my life when he came down the stairs- he was grey in colour and very thin and shaky he had no strength what so ever. He was told to go back up to the hospital and he has been there all day on a iv drip.
They are now giving him steroids and his anti sickness via the iv too. He is now in isolation because of his increased risk of infection and at least for tonight is allowed no visitors other than mum.
I knew with the chemo he would be poorly but he has only had that one day of it and he has been so bad since. I know if the effects continue to be this bad he will be thinkiing along the lines of 'quality' rather than 'quantity'.
Its so hard now i keep having a go at my husband and i don't want him near me- he can't do anything right. Other times i just want him to hold me and tell me its all going to be alright. I know its me, i'm trying so hard not to take it out on him yet i still keep doing it.
Everyone talks about ups and downs but where are our UP'S??????????
