So i start my new job at the hospital tomorrow and i have butterflies as big as elephants.
I have my trust induction and my ward induction monday and tuesday and nursing and midwifery induction wednesday, thursday and friday. Then i'll be doing 38 hours a week on the wards 
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I am excited this is what i want to do, i have had my kids they are all at primary school now, this is my time now!!! I am 31 in 2 weeks, i have to do something for me.
Dad wanted me to do this, i am doing it for me but there is a huge part of me doing this for him too, i want him to look down and be proud that i have done what i said and started to climb this ladder.
I have read some posts on here lately that make me think god do i really want to go into nursing and work for the nhs, I would hate to think of patients thinking i don't have time for them. I want to do my job and do it properly to its full extent and like Jenni has said on her posts sometimes just put a smile on peoples faces. I don't want to the care i give to patients to be dictated by time. Oh well we will see what happens i just want to do my job well.
Butterflies are even bigger now lol. I CAN do this!!!
Love to you all xxxx
