It only seems right to share the good news, doesn't it?
It's been tough until now, but suddenly, since I got the results of my first scan two days ago, which were all OK, I feel such great happiness. It feels so wonderful.
Exactly this time last year, it was so different. I'd been diagnosed with an advanced stage of Endometrium Cancer . I had my op a month later and was diagnosed with Grade 111C (of an aggressive type of cancer). Since then and until the last day of October I've had chemo therapy and Radio Therapy and have been tired, sometimes very low and once along the way, I got really depressed.
(Blogging here helped with that! Thanks)
My treatments finally finished and I did, after about a month, begin to feel well again ,(though extremely tired until just recently ).
I was anxious before this first scan, afraid I might have to have more treatment, secretly worried that I might have cancer back in some other part of the body (because with this Endometrium cancer, it could return anywhere - in fact the chances of survival are 30% apparently).
I was preparing myself to be free of it, because, in my experience, it really does help to try to be 'chilled out' as much as possible, to think the 'happier thought',go for the nicer 'thing to do next' , not give in to fearful obsessions and frets or doominess...... while, at the same time, I was also making my peace with my spirit (just in case I had to deal with more cancer).
But suddenly with this amazing 'all clear' I feel I've been let off the hook to enjoy my life again. This Christmas is a huge blessing. My family and friends and loved ones are all so happy.
Obviously I don't know what the future holds, but for today I AM CANCER FEE and I want to share it with everyone.It feels wonderful. I'm totally appreciative of the life I have.
Living with cancer has been dreadful but I'm better today, and it is a part of my illness. The experience is with me and perhaps I'm better for it. Anyway, I'm deeply connected to fellow sufferers and to those,who today - are having a good day...or a bad one, or a long one, or a weird one, a low or zonked one, or even a day of reprieve.....
I just wanted to tell you that it feels incredible to be on the other side of this year. And to have been allowed to survive - and share it with you.
Hope this is OK.
