Today

Another bittersweet day... Today I collected my gorgeous man from the hospital.  They have sent him home to die... How is it even possible that 8 weeks ago we were planning our future, our house is Malta, our careers, etc..... and now we are talking funerals and after-life plans..

The Macmillan nurse I met today was lovely, helpful and kind.  Don't get me wrong, the other one I met probably is too, but she is the one that has been giving me the BAD news all the time... I know, unfair but I can't help how I feel.

Ma in law is sending all her prayers to the saints in the hope that Paul will defy the odds... Never been majorly religious but I sincerely hope she gets her prayers answered. I cannot live without my man :'(  I wanna be with him.... I will do everything in my power never to leave him xxxxx