Two things:
1. J. has been twitching in the night again. He used to be really bad with it in the months leading up to diagnosis but hasn't been doing it for the last month or so. 2 nights this week it has happened.
2.He told me last night his back is aching again in a different place and has been doing for the last couple of days. His back pain and sciatica had completely cleared up after first lot of steroids which had led us to think that the treatment was working.
Immediately felt absolutely terrified. Realised just how much we have relaxed since that first chemo, and also whether it is anything or it isn't, this instant anxiety is how it is always going to be now :-(
God I really hope it isn't anything. His consultant is off on holiday this week too...
