Things are pretty much where they were when I last wrote. J is still suffering from fatigue and is also still hoarse. The fatigue can be ascribed to full time working again, stressful job, much driving, targets, nights away etc. The hoarseness is less easy to explain away.He says it doesn't bother him as he hasn't got a sore throat, but it bothers me a lot. Sometimes I can't bear to have conversations with him, I don't hear what he says, just the croak. The strange thing is that no-one else seems to have noticed and I've wondered if I'm going mad and it's some sort of post traumatic stress thing.
However, it seems now, maybe not. Today he was particularly croaky and I suggested again that he might want to talk to the consultant about it because it might be something pressing on his voice box. And for once he agreed. It seems that he felt a lump to the left of his voice box the other day but scared himself and hadn't felt around again. He had another go with me there and it is still there....maybe not a lump he says but more at one side than the other. It is very near to where his scar is from his biopsy. This is very concerning because we know hodgkins usually comes back in the place where it started. On a brighter note it is tender to touch and i think remembering my elementary lymphoma training, that that can signify a swollen gland because of an infection....
oh hell, we'll see...
