I'm a lot calmer than when I last wrote. Been practicing my mindfulness techniques and have stopped scruitinising J so much. I have realised that he has good days as well as bad, and often, nearly always actually, the reason for the bad is that he has over done it the day before. He has looked dreadful this week, but he was at a stag do over the weekend, so he took more out of the energy bank than he had in. These thoughts calm me and we've had a good last month and made lots of plans for the rest of the year - something we've avoided since diagnosis.
Anyway 3 month check up number 2 is looming. It has been brought forward to next Wednesday. By a strange twist of fate he also has a job interview that afternoon. Sounds like a hell of a day. Could be a really good one if both things went well. Once again, fingers, toes and knees crossed...
