I know the MDT meeting was Thursday lunchtime and a strong chance they would be discussing my results. My impatience kicked in at 4pm when I sent a polite enquiring text to the oncologist. She rang almost immediately, promising a proper appointment next week, but advised that I had a “complete pathological response”. She's a fab consultant but why oh why can't she talk in non medical speak!
Anyway, I quickly ascertained that this is the best outcome possible and it means there are no active cancer cells left!
So, what do I feel? Honestly? I feel nothing! I know in my head that this is good news. Everyone I have told is delighted for me. My husband and daughter are relieved. And I just feel, well, that's it, I just feel “ok then, that's that, what's next”. I understand that this is pretty normal actually and that many people don't have a rush of happiness at this stage, but I am told the emotional response will come at some point.
So, for now, I am going to celebrate with a bottle of fizz and await what's next!
