Hi. It is now 7.15 in the morning. I am not sure what to say, but I just needed to write something. At a real bad point at this minute. Hank went onto syringe driver on Friday as it was needed for pain relief. Each time that I am beside him, I wish this was over for him, as he has been in some really bad places. He cannot communicate with me, and this is the hardest thing. I think he knows that I am beside him, but he is putting up such a fight, not to let go. His body is weak, but his willpower will not let go. I have had more nurses and Doctors in last 3 days, but it does not make it easier. I love him so much and this is soul destroying to feel so helpless. All I can do is sit at his side and hold him. Will keep in touch, and I appreciate all your support and prayers.
Olivia and Hank
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