It's been a while since I started with all best intentions.....so here I am back again to share with you where I am now.........
The last month has been awful. Delays in hospital treatment have meant that they had to forcibly insert a stent and now I can't eat normally and it's hard to find the positive things to focus on. I was in hospital for a week as I just couldn't stop being sick and when I was home the drugs were all getting too much. I got my daughter to look at the side effects of the sickness drugs that had been prescribed and she hit the roof and told me to stop taking them as they were basically sedatives - I couldn't even remember my own postcode.
Certainly feeling as though my mind is my own again but it has taken it out of me and I've lost quite a bit of weight so the positive news of more chemo is now hard work as I am not strong enough for EOX so am having the OX. It is the usual first week awfulness of chemo as the steroids make you feel really rough.
My daughter has actually ambushed my account to write this, to say what is happening and she is hoping that this gives her Dad a big wake up call. A call to fight, a scream to not give up and that there is so much worth living for and still many experiences to have that involve laughter and love.
It is hard when cancer takes over your life - every waking moment and it takes over the lives of those around you too. But there will always be moments of humour - especially moments of hospital catering complaints when the chef says to a patient with a special dietary need 'what do you think this is....Tesco!!!'. Genius.......
