I'm sitting in my garden which I have always loved and am trying to find who I am, where have I gone, I'm not the same anymore and I feel I cannot go on. My cancer was in 2007,, I have painful arthritis which is made worse by the fact I can no longer take anti-inflammaries, my left arm looks like an elephant, my back/hips/knee hurts and I now have angina, for which I am taking copious amounts of medication - I feel like crap. Where on earth am I, I have completely lost myself to illness and, today, I cannot fight to have some kind of fun with the restrictions that have become my world. The lovely people on here live with cancer all the time and never cease to amaze me but I've had enough today, maybe tomorrow I'll feel less on the floor but right now where is the beauty I used to see in life itself. Keep well everyone, you are all inspirational. Ann x
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