Yesterday I really was on the floor, so I contacted my Mac family as they are the only ones who seem to understand. My husband just worries sick and my daughter immediately says I am going to die! Everyone on here is suffering big time in one way or the other especially after losing our loved ones. Thank you my family. Today I feel more pro-active and am going to call my GP and ask for some answers now, not in 3-6 mts time. I am also wondering, with my health probs. whether I should postpone my reconstruction, which both my husband and daughter don't want me to have. Anyway, I know losing weight will help me enormously to cope with my arthritis but I have a sneaky doubt in my mind that if I try and slim my pain resulted in the cancer coming back as I didn't have chem and my ca. was high grade. Silly, I know, but I just can't help wondering. On that line I am going to phone my onc. today and request a scan. My hub. and daughter think I'm too ill to have more surgery so I may have to live with my butchered body and be thankful I'm here with only one boob. So yes, I am gone, this is not me, but I'm still here unfortunately. God bless all my Mac friends, I love you all. Ann x
