Happy New Year to all. I am useless at this computer lark but often read about breast cancer ladies in the forum and really feel for you all - I too had breast cancer in left breast with axillary clearance - grade 3 and left breast mastectomy in 2007. Unfortunately, I couldn't have my FEC as after one treatment had infection and fight for life. Here I am though 2010 post radio., 1 year Herceptin and, still laughing at life - its all I can do. I always say, if I'm still breathing, I'm still living. No-one knows when the grim reaper is going to come, we're just more aware of his existence. My friend's granddaughter died two weeks before this xmas - she was doing a cross country run one day before her 12 birthday, felt breathless afterwards, not well, then just died. She had never had any problems with her health but autopsy showed heart disease which is genetic! When my friend told me I didn't know what to say, I just put my arms around her - there are no words. Life is so fragile, having cancer just makes us so much more aware of it. So, what's to do, lie down and give up or party? I chose party every time, every day, every minute. Anyway, I have got so much from all the survivors on this site so thank you but I just push buttons and end up somewhere in space instead of actually making contact.
I read indiechick's diary yesterday and today susiesoux - you are both inspirational and give so much to me just by writing about yourselves. All we can do is take one day at a time - tomorrow belongs to no-one, only today (apart from the bills!!). Does anyone out there suffer lots of joint pain - I've got lymphoedema in left arm, which affects my fused neck from spondylosis but lately have been getting constant lower back pain especially in bed. I am on co-codamol every four hours, sometimes tramadol, sometimes diclofenac, but doctors seem to just give more meds. My bone scan was okay so is joint pain something that we have to live with after radiotherapy and herceptin? My treatment finished nearly a year ago now so I thought I should be getting more mobile but the pains are getting worse, especially behind my lower right rib and lower back.
Sometimes, I think I'd rather have family sized glasses of wine instead of meds - at least it gets me on the music and puts a smile on my face. Anyway, onwards and upwards to you all and I wish you strength and happiness every day.
