hi my names ema yup one m,,,,, i like being different.i have a son he is 1 and a husbandlast year in july i nearly died my kidnys got s infected i just pulled through and no more my husband is the best he doesnt really show his feelings but now and again i see sorrow and fear in his eyes when my kidney thing is mentioned at the begining of the month found a lump in my left breast i never realy check and i dont know why i checked that morning i just DID just instict i guess.i went into the bedroom and told my husband he justgot this look on his face not disbelief not sorrow just his eyes saying "not again" it was more than fear... i asked him to tell me it was nothing that i would be ok that it was just a cyst.he just looked at his hands lookd at our son and it felt like a century till his eyes came to me and he just said he couldnt tell me that he told me to get checked i went to the doctors and she said the lump is to deep to tell so i need to go to the clinic.... she said the lump felt harder than a cyst but she couldnt comment yet. well tomorow is breast clinic day- stobhill 9:35 am.. i have no idea how to get there i dont know what to expect when i do get there.it sounds stupid but if it is cancer i justdont have time for it its not losing my hair ect it just i have a son i'm a model i cant b ill.i know you are all going through worse.. alot worse. but at some point you were me so please just tell me what to expectat my apt....
