Today, my dad would have been 79.
I feel as if I should be FEELING something on his first 'missed' birthday, but I don't feel anything at all. When we went back to my parents' house a few days ago, I tested my reaction (none, really) and am puzzled by it. I think about him from time to time, and have occasionally thought of buying something he would like, or telling him something only he would 'get', but that seems to be it.
He's been dead 7 months now, and I'm very much in the 'not with a bang, but a whimper' stage, as opposed to my mother, who is crushed with grief.
If anybody has felt like this, I would be VERY glad to hear about it as I'm concerned at my apparent lack of concern. (MAYBE it has a lot to do with my antidepressants, but I'm not convinced).
