My brother just wont eat trying to get build up drink down wont work he just wont have them. I feel such a faliure the whole family is looking to me to keep him going they dont see the tears he sheds because his in pain the sleepless nights or the cleaning up i have to do when he has an accident in his sleep they see the good times when he does get up untill today when dad saw for himself how much his gone down hill its hard to get sense out of him sometimes he knows what he wants to say but there just seems to be a blockage from his brain to his mouth he then gets angry with me because i carnt understand what he wants. i dont know what to do for the best am falling apart inside but putting up a gd front. every 1 says am doing a great job but i dont think i am and i just want to go sit in a corner and rock and cry
